A note I found from your dad xx

Today I chucked a sicky so I could spend some time with the kids and Kylie. Emmys been telling me she misses me lately and I know myself that I've been working way too much. I realize how much I miss out on when I get to stay home. The hugs in bed in the morning, the jostling for bed positions, Gracy whacking me in the balls. The girls are growing up so fast I feel like I'm missing it. What can I do? Emmys such a little girl now and sharp as a tack. Yep 3 going on 13 I'm gonna be in trouble .shes already telling me off and correcting the things I say. Gracy seems to have grown up aswell though she's still not talking yet. Gracy is definitely the adventurous one. Like a bull at a gate with everything she does. And usually with that devilish grin on her face. Kylie's just taught Emmy and Gracey the bum dance and the girls love it. They'll come out of the shower and line up and wiggle their bums and make fart noises it is funny watching them i think thats definately from the Bonham side of the family.I find myself just staring at them most of the time just being amazed at how I've created these two little people and seeing the resemblances in myself. I went to playgroup with them today and Gracey only tried to hit 1boy today which I got told was good for her. Emmy made my fathers day card well colored it a bit and then we played a bit of Chasy and then I set up the train track blocks for the kids to play with. Ok I might have enjoyed the train set a little too much.but it was nice to see the girls playing with the other kids. If you two girls ever read this I want you to know that I'm already so proud of both of you. Go after your dreams, never lose those big personalities and always do what makes you happy lifes too short and time goes too fast. Love you all

                                          Dad xxx

Ups & Downs

So it's been a challenging few months lately. I think I've probably taken on to much, with looking after the family, doing two courses, and the general running the girls to all there activitys. Having to make the hard decision of finding Bella a new home. I don't know who is more up set, Emmy or Me. It breaks my heart that I had to make this decision and then explain it to Em. But I can't put the girls safety at risk by keeping Bella around. What happens if next time Bella bites Graceys face? I would hate my self more. It sucks being a parent sometimes.
Emmy and Grace are growing up so quick. Gracey, my god your the devil in disguise! You remind me so much of my self when I was young, such a strong minded, defiant little 2 year old! You don't like to listen, you Love your food, and you love nothing better then to start a argue ent with me my disagreeing! Your favorite thing to do at the moment is to crawl around on all fours and pretend your a lion, and roar at the top of your lungs. Heavens forbid anyone mistake you for a cat or a dog, because you are quick to tell them 'no, lion!'. You and me have been doing playgroup on a Monday, it's amazing watching you grow up and discover new things, I'm already missing you being the baby :-( oh and Emily, what a smart young lady your turning into. For a 5yr old, you can hold your own in a conversation. To day you made me giggle, because as we walked into the kinder you told me you forgot your 'happy' and when I asked you where you left it you said back in the car. So off you ran to the car, opened the door, hopped in and when you hopped out you had the biggest most beautiful smile, and said its ok, I found my happy now xx Everyday Emmy you continue to surprise me, today you asked me what eyeballs are made off, that was a tricky one to answer! As much as I yell at you guys sometimes, it's just because I know you are better then your behavior translates. You are both so different, and I wouldn't change it for the work, I hope that you embrace yourselves and feel comfortable in your own skin, and live your dreams. Because even if does feel like a day can go forever, and a week even longer, realistically life is short, you only get one chance to live, to be a kid, a teenager, and adult. So don't ever put anything on hold, and if you want to do something do it with in reason (don't be breaking Any laws or hurting anyone, cause Kara's a bitch and it will come bite you on the arse).
Luke I love you with all my heart, but sometimes I get sick of trying, it doesn't mean I don't love you any less then what I loved you when we got married, it just means that I'm getting tired and the more tired I get, the harder it is to try. Some times I wish it was as simple as going to sleep and not waking up, but then I remember.... You, my husband, my savior, and the girls, and then everyone else out there who isn't as blessed as me to have a beautiful family and house. I don't know why i get these thoughts sometimes, I try my hardest to fight them, and be positive. As I am the glue that hold us together. I'm off to bed know, love my little family to the unicorns and back xx

Ups & Downs